Better

This summer has been a strange one for me.

Growth, heartache, joy, pain, change, love, pride, delight, hurt...

I've been overwhelmed by all of it and completely unable to find words to express myself.

I've been processing those feelings and trying really hard to actually feel them.
Slowly, deliberately, intensely.

The silence on my blog has been the result of all that.

The way the whole spectrum of emotion seemed to find it's

way into my life all at once caught me seriously off guard.

I couldn't think straight or write and I could barely even manage to pick up my camera
on a day to day basis and that is so out of character for me.

I was living my life like usual.

Just going through the motions, doing what I've always done, mindlessly and without conviction.

Living that way wasn't how I wanted my life to be.

I expected more from myself than that and I didn't even know it.

I'm slowly working my way out of it...
Getting better every day, working my way towards a better, healthier, more fulfilling me.

"I haven't a clue how my story

will end, but that's all right.

When you set out on a journey

and night covers the road, that's

when you discover the stars."

- Nancy Willard